Life Lesson #4: enough.

enough

 

One year ago today . . . it was my last day before I became a mother. I was exhausted and sick and impatient and frustrated. The disappointment of my birth story being nothing I could have ever imagined or asked for.

This past year has been filled with similar feelings of exhaustion (ask me if my baby sleeps through the night yet and I’ll cut you) . . . impatience . . . frustration.

The feeling of wanting, needing MORE.

But, more of what?

I’m not really sure.

But, in the hustle and bustle of things – in raising an infant in the first year, in going through a divorce, in wading through all these major life changes . . . it’s so easy to want things to hurry up and come together. To rush through the days. To be frustrated.

To want more from life.

But, that’s just it.

This is my life.

And it is enough.

It will always be enough.

No matter how much any particular moment might hurt, might frustrate, might overwhelm, might fall short of expectations . . . there is still always something to be thankful for, to embrace, to treasure.

Tomorrow I will wake up and have a 1 year old son.

My little boy who has opened my eyes to so much more than I ever saw or believed in my entire 34.5 years.

No matter how insane life gets, I know I can always close my eyes and think of my love for Charlie and remember that I have it all.

Comments

  1. If it makes you feel any better, my three year old still wakes up in the middle of the night and comes in our bed to sleep. .

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