to make a new beginning.

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It’s just another day of the week, yet New Year’s Eve always brings about it a feeling of hope and new beginnings. As if suddenly at the stroke of midnight, when the calendar flips, anything and everything becomes possible. And it’s a time to leave everything unwanted and unnecessary behind.

While nothing magical happens when the clock strikes midnight – there is something magical in that attitude that allows us all to feel refreshed and renewed.

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This year, as very complex as it was, can be summed up rather simply . . . it was the best of times. It was the worst of times.

I became a mom. I BECAME A MOM!!!!!

Then, I became a single mom.

A marriage ended.

An 18 year co-parenting relationship began.

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My parents visited today and my mom mentioned how it will be exciting for me to get a new year and a fresh start. I laughed, because it feels like I am constantly having to reinvent myself and get fresh starts in life. I’m seriously starting to feel like a cat with nine lives.

But, she added, now I get to do it with a little buddy at my side.

My Charlie.

That changes everything. For the better.

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I’m not sure if it’s been the spirit of the holidays, but my anger is softening. The reality of what is happening has started to settle and normalize. I can either fight it or I can embrace it.

I know 2015 isn’t going to be easy. Many, many more changes are in store for me. However, at least I know they are coming and they are things I have control over.

I’ve got this!  I’ve always had this.

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My goals for 2015:

– I am going to cherish every last minute I have as a stay-at-home-mom. I love Charlie more than all of the ice cream that has ever been and ever will be made. I will never take his precious life for granted.

– S and I are going to rock out co-parenting so well we’ll inspire others to divorce! (Kidding. So kidding. About the latter part anyway.)

– I am going to find a full time job I LOVE.

– I am going to “find my people” and create my own community of single parents.

– I am going to buy my own home and put lots of thought and love into decorating it and making it a cozy, homey space for Charlie, me, the dogs and the cat. (What a little circus I have!)

– I am going to be kinder to myself. I am doing the best that I can. That’s all I can do. I am human. I make mistakes. I learn lessons. I make more mistakes. I move on.

That’s what life is all about.

And we only get one shot.

Let’s do this, 2015!!!!


If you’re bored . . . check out my year-end wrap ups from prior years . . .

2009

2010

2011

(2012 and 2013 didn’t even get a nod good bye or a summary . . . I think because both years I was pregnant, and I was far too busy looking ahead and anticipating a bundle of joy that I wasn’t much in the mood for reflecting.)

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